Yesterday
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She sat in my exam room. 60 years old, worn and tired … a burned out candle. A Missionary in China for 30 years... full of so much anxiety, depression and anger. She told me she knew more than all the counselors combined (she was getting a pHD in counseling) and has refused any more counseling recommendations. She says she has been to a countless Christian counselors and they have all given up on her. She also declines any medications for her clinical depression. I asked her, "You tell me what you think is causing your depression, inability to sleep, chronic fatigue and anger? "
She tells me, "A broken heart."
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She is 19 years old and has a complicated pregnancy. She has three children all by different fathers who are lost to her. Her urine drug screens are always positive and she smoked through each pregnancy. She disappeared for about a month and the emergency number listed rings a "friend" who says she will never be back and don't try to find her. ..she doesn't want to be found" . She needs weekly specialist care, but barely shows up to the remote rural clinic that is offering her basic OB care. I drove an hour out of town to precept this small clinic full of broken mothers, almost none of them own or drive a car. I don't even know how they get to their appointments most of the time.
Like a ghost, she walked through the clinic doors today. … with a man who looked 20years her senior and smelled like urine. The resident told me "She met him online last week and has moved in with him."
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Last night- both after midnight-- God let me deliver 2 beautiful babies into this world. He will be their only hope and light in this dark place.
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She sat in my exam room. 60 years old, worn and tired … a burned out candle. A Missionary in China for 30 years... full of so much anxiety, depression and anger. She told me she knew more than all the counselors combined (she was getting a pHD in counseling) and has refused any more counseling recommendations. She says she has been to a countless Christian counselors and they have all given up on her. She also declines any medications for her clinical depression. I asked her, "You tell me what you think is causing your depression, inability to sleep, chronic fatigue and anger? "
She tells me, "A broken heart."
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She is 19 years old and has a complicated pregnancy. She has three children all by different fathers who are lost to her. Her urine drug screens are always positive and she smoked through each pregnancy. She disappeared for about a month and the emergency number listed rings a "friend" who says she will never be back and don't try to find her. ..she doesn't want to be found" . She needs weekly specialist care, but barely shows up to the remote rural clinic that is offering her basic OB care. I drove an hour out of town to precept this small clinic full of broken mothers, almost none of them own or drive a car. I don't even know how they get to their appointments most of the time.
Like a ghost, she walked through the clinic doors today. … with a man who looked 20years her senior and smelled like urine. The resident told me "She met him online last week and has moved in with him."
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Last night- both after midnight-- God let me deliver 2 beautiful babies into this world. He will be their only hope and light in this dark place.
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